Hydrogen in Cancer
Chakra: Sacral
♋Sign: Cancer
Mantra: I Feel Hydrogen. I Feel the memory of the origin beating within me.
🔥Activation: Gently move the hips, allowing emotion to flow.
Emotions are not something that I have a close relationship with. Most of my life I tried to teach myself to shove them into the dark corners of my body so that I could focus on what I thought really mattered; surviving. This is how life was for many years. I had no idea the imprints that were tattooing the inner waters of my being.
In 2014 I was introduced to Sanskrit. Almost immediately it began having an effect on me. I was enamored by the way it was pulling my consciousness away from my incessant thoughts. My thoughts, which had become a constant symphony of negativity and judgements, were detaching from how I identified with myself. The Observer within me was able to see them as separate, although they were very much inside of me. I worked on my capacity to chant longer texts, and eventually began sitting to chant with my teacher.
Chanting with him opened up a completely new level of consciousness. We ignited the divine flame and shook the internal waters with the vibration of our voices. All my past memories began to sizzle up and explode into my mind like fireworks. All the pain, sadness, regret, and bad actions were flooding my awareness. Those many years of shoving emotions away were springing back with a vengeance. I would cry relentlessly while trying to focus on the Sanskrit through crocodile tears. These painful emotional memories, bonded together by the Hydrogen in the water, were being extracted from inside me through my tears, my sweat, and the exhalation of my breath. For me, it was accessing the origin of my patterns and revealing the cause of so many of the negative effects in my life. There are so many types of origins, and this Hydrogen links the memories of them all together.
I think about the origin of my daughter. Gestating in the waters of the womb for all those months; soaking in the memories of my body while she grew. Now that she is born, she will begin to bond her emotions together to create her own memories. Last night I saw her first tear. It was a bittersweet moment in her development. She can release her emotions now, but it breaks my heart to think of all the times that she will need to do so.
I feel Hydrogen. I feel the memory of the origin beating within me.